I have a new walking partner.

It's really nice.
I don't have to talk to her.
(I'm not good at talking and walking.)
She's encouraging, and happy all the time.
If I don't want to walk, we don't.
If I want to walk 1 mile, we do.
If I feel like two, she'll go with me.
The only annoying thing is the side steps, and kicks.
Well, that and the arms.
All in all, I would have to say she's the perfect person to walk with.
Plus, she doesn't charge me.
"Carrot, who charges you to walk with them? I mean, really."
Well, she would.
If I didn't have On Demand on cable.
Yes, that's right, I walk with Leslie Sansone .











You should try it.
Even if you don't have cable.
She sells herself at Target.
Hey, don't judge her people.
Everybody needs a little money now and then.

I guess I should divide this week.

I didn't go weigh in last week because we were at the Ocean.



Is that a good excuse?
So I weighed in this morning, and lost
2.4 lbs
So if I divide that, I can say I lost 1.2 lbs last week, and
1.2 lbs this week.
I'll take that.

Don't be fooled.

A tiny container of this is 7 Weight Watchers points.
SEVEN.
That's almost a whole meal's points for me.
I added up the points while I was warming it up.
Needless to say, I left it for someone else to eat.

Here's what I'd like to know.

How honest do you have to get to lose the weight?
Is it necessary?
To look at the past, and why I got this way.
Do I need to do that in order to change?
How much past stuff that you've shoved down, do you need to bring up again?
None?
A little?
All of it?
What do you do with it when it's out?
What if it embarrasses someone?
Do I need to hire Jillian to come and yell at me and make me cry for me to talk about it?
Should I bring a couch in here?
Today I got a flood of memories, and emotions, all associated with my weight.
Do I need to open up?
Or can I keep my closed sign up and still be successful?
Am I repeating questions?
Are you checking?
Am I being annoying?
Is anybody reading this?

I think gum has become my cigarettes.

We've gone public

Only because logging in to read a blog is annoying. I'm sorry.

*sigh*

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